Today I was reading Colin Tipping’s blog on Weight Loss and
Body Issues. I love his work on Radical Forgiveness. Nothing new, nothing I hadn’t read before. In it he said weight or excess weight
functions as protection from generalized hurt and rejection, but most
frequently it is used to protect from imagined or real sexual attack. Louise
Hay, a leader in the New Thought, self-help community, in her book You Can Heal
Your Life, also says the excess weight is a form of fear, running away from
feelings, insecurity, self-rejection and seeking fulfillment. Ernest Holmes in Science of Mind states
obesity is an expression of a person’s mentality that is filled with
unexpressed longings, which he is trying to sublimate. Notice none of these
people suggested that the reason for being fat is eating too many donuts, or
saturated fat and any of the other stuff we have been bombarded with by the
weight loss industry and even First Lady Michelle Obama.
Believing that everything I see is a manifestation of
thought (check out the Kybalion or even the Bible) and being a student of the
Spirit Mind Body connection school, I know excess weight represents much more
than extra calories and lack of exercise.
Colin Tipping wrote in his blog “the mind reasons that being
physically attractive is a risky proposition, so the best way to ward off
physical advances is by making oneself decidedly unattractive. What better way to become sexually
unattractive than to be obese?”
Whoa? This statement disturbed
me. All my spiritual training and
enlightenment went out the door. I
started writing a scathing response to his statement. My response included links to
igigi.com,
plusmodelmag.com,
madisonplus.com,
gabifresh.com,
thebodyisnotanapology.com and a load of other
websites I love and wished to God that they were around when I was a teenager
over 25 years ago. I wanted him to see
Fluvia Lacerda,
Anansa Sims, Mia Amber Davis, and a slew of everyday
women, including myself, in my hometown, Washington, DC. I wanted to prove to him that he was wrong
and to show him what his erroneous thoughts had him missing.
Why was I having so much energy around this statement? Why
did I care? Over the years I have
learned that if I have a lot of energy around something that a person says,
especially if outwardly I disagree with the statement, on some subconscious
level I am agreeing with it.
Noooooo!!!!, I didn’t what to admit this, not while reading his blog.
Growing up as the only fat kid in damn near every place I
went, home, school, family outings, I thought I was now in a place where my
self-esteem was fully intact. What was
my anger around Tipping’s statement telling me, showing me? While walking my dog, the answer clearly came to me.
On some level, I had accepted that as true
and even though I had DONE what showed to the world that I believed fat was
physically attractive, my subconscious was still playing out this erroneous
thought that I had accepted as a child.
And this is what needed to be changed, my thoughts, not Colin
Tipping’s.
Whether my body fits within what society calls normal isn’t
the issue. How I really see myself,
Angela, the Spirit of God, Angela, the Mind of God and Angela the Body of God,
is the issue. If I see myself as God
sees me, then my Spirit, my Mind and my Body shall represent this truth. And in this case my body will reflect
perfect wholeness and wellness, the shape and form, perfect. So when I look in the mirror and see myself
as God sees me, I can’t help but to think that I am beautiful and that yes, I
am physically attractive.
Change my thinking, change my life.
Be the change I want to see in the world.
How can I receive when I walk around with my guards up or my arms pushing my good away. Many of us walk around with our guards up, energetically. I see it when someone offers to help me, and my "independent spirit" says, "No, thank you. I've got it." I noticed it a lot at Thanksgiving when the offer to help family with different tasks were rejected because they didn't want "to be any trouble." They would do it themselves. I have noticed myself refusing to be helped in the simplest of tasks. "No, thank you. I've got this." Sometimes, this "independent spirit" denies a person to give a blessing and denies a person to receive the blessing. It's time to put our guards down. It is time to allow Love to come to us in its variety of forms. The very thing we try to block is the very thing we fear. Let that fear go and the blocks are gone. Open up and allow God to flow through you, to express through and as you, today. Receive. Be receptive. Be open. Breathe... 
