Last year I published a book,
Bianca love Sex Tales. I have no idea whether it was good or not. Let me rephrase that. I have no idea if people liked my book. Why? I advertised it only to a few people and an even smaller group bought it. I didn’t give the book an opportunity to be a success. Besides being a writer, I am a spiritual counselor, a Religious Science Practitioner. That’s my main job right now. In a nutshell, I believe that there is a spiritual solution (Truth) to every problem. And it’s my job to assist people in getting to that Truth, a Truth that is always within them. Here I am a “spiritual” counselor and an “erotica” writer, or as my mother calls it a “smut” writer. I told someone about my book the other day. She asked could she get a copy. I told her that I wasn’t selling it anymore. Her next question was why not? My answer was that I hadn’t reconciled being a “spiritual” life coach and “erotica” writer. So, I gave up on the writing. By the way, my writings don’t use a lot of flowery words when describing the sexual acts in the stories, some might even call it porn.
Lately, I had had some health challenges in my reproductive area. For anyone who knows about chakras, this is the 2nd chakra. The Sanskrit name for the 2nd chakra is "Svadhisthana". This word means, "dwelling place of the Self." This is the energy area in your body that is associated with creativity and procreation. It is located in the lower abdomen, about an inch below the navel. It also governs emotional and sensual aspects of our lives. The emotion associated with the 2nd chakra is passion
There was my answer. There were the reasons behind the health challenges. There was a block in this area and I knew exactly where the block had come from. I hadn’t reconciled the roles of spirituality and sexuality in my life. I’d shut down a lot of my creative expressions. I hadn’t reconciled that I could talk about God and sex with the same amount of passion. I hadn’t reconciled a lot about these two subjects and how and if they could coexist in my life. Then, I started to think about how a lot of people and how a lot of their health challenges express themselves in the 2nd chakra. So, this is my journey in reconciling spirituality and sexuality. This is my journey of moving beyond “spirituality” and “sexuality” being mutually exclusive and into being mutually inclusive. This is a journey of me living my life from a place of feeling good.
